Posted by: livelovethinkexist | May 23, 2009

In Search of the Meaning of Life – An Autobiography (Chapter Five, Part Fifteen)

(Early Poems continued…)

50. SHE

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

She

Never had to say

I love you

 

She

Was always there

By my side

 

She

Was my lady

I loved her

 

She

Was the

Only One

 

My lady

My life

My lady

My wife

 

51. ON MY WAY

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

The time has come

To be on my way

But I’d like to stay

Another day

With you

But I have to go

And I’ll miss you so

But I’d like to show

You I love you

For another day

Just to hear you say

(Unfinished)

 

52. WHY

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Why

Tell me

Why

Who

Am I

I live

I must

Die

A tear

In my

Eye

Life

Goes by

Sorrow

In the

Sky

A heartbeat

Until I

Die

Why

Tell me

Why

Who

Am I

I live

I must

Die

 

53. SILENCE

(Written in England on my bike trip)

 

Silence

All around me

Echoes

Linger on

Fear

Surrounds me

Lost

I want to be found

Set me free

From my prison

Set me free

Give me life

Come to me

Take me with you

All I want

Is my life

Life

Life

Life

Give me life

 

54. DREAMING

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Dreaming

On a sunny day

Thinking

We’re going to find a way

Baby

I’ve got a feeling inside

That we’re

Going to make it through

And be satisfied

 

55. HELLO

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Well hello

How are you

I’m alive and well

How about you

You know it’s been

Such a long time

 

56. CATCH A BREEZE

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Catch a breeze in your sail

And you’re on your way

I hope you have

Such a pleasant stay

While you’re on your way

Carried on by the wind

 

57. HOPING

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Hoping

Searching

Crying

Every day

Looking

Trying

Dying

To find a way

Dreaming

Scheming

Feeling

I’ve got to say

(Unfinished)

 

58. A JOURNEY

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

A journey

Across the sea

Cloaked in mystery

Coming

To a new land

Making

A final stand

Fighting for life

Living for love

(Unfinished)

 

59. A PLACE IN THE SUN

(Written in England on my bicycle trip)

 

Do you want to be

Do you want to see

Can you follow me

To a place

In the sun

(Unfinished)

 

60. WHEN I NEEDED A FRIEND

Hello

How are you

It’s been a long

Long time

Since I saw you

How are you

How are you

Hello again

It seems like so long ago you said

When I needed a friend

To call you

How are you

How are you

Hello my friend

I remembered the good times

We shared together

The days we walked

The beach together

And the nights that

We had to share together

Together

With a friend

A friend

How are you

How are you

Hello

How are you

You’re so far away

From me tonight

As I call you

I want you

I need you

How are you

 

61. YOU SAID FOREVER

You said forever

You promised me forever

You took my hand

And walked with me

You told me that

You needed me

I believed in you

I believed in you

I needed you

I needed you

You walked

Into my life

(Unfinished)

 

62. IN MEMORY OF A FRIEND

(In memory of Mark Walker, my childhood friend.  This was my first poem, written in May, 1974 – while I was still in High School.)

 

We were best of friends

In days gone by

When we were young

And had hopes so high

Who could know that his final day

Would be in ’74, the 22nd of May

The last I saw him alive and well

Was from a distance at a hockey game

The memory is dimmed

For seven years have gone by

Since we were friends

When the second hand stops and

Our card is drawn

Our time is up and we must depart

For a new life and a new dawn

In some distant place

We go to our final resting place

It is not a time of sadness

Though our emotions might tell us so

We go to have a new beautiful life

Without hatred, war, sadness or strife

Who knows when it is our turn to go next

It could be tomorrow or 70 years hence

The lottery of mankind is always in motion

Delay as we might that final day

When we take our turn at the wheel is our notion

For all mankind must inevitably take

That card on which our name appears

Scared or frightened we should not be

For everyone will do it and begin eternity

A friend I have lost but the memory remains

Of the boy I knew and the happiness our lives contained

We will meet again in some distant day

And continue on our eternal way

 

63. SINGING MY SONG

I’m just truckin’ along

And singing my song

Just where I will go

I don’t even know

 

My life’s on the road

Carrying my load

I’ll cruise to the sun

The journey’s begun

 

I’m riding on my dream in life

Sighting on the stars

Riding on the winds of change

Cruising past the cars

 

I’m living life free and easy

I’ve got to make a stand

Got no use to settle down

It’s just not in my plans

 

The road on ahead

Is going my way

I don’t think I’ll stop here

Just can’t afford to stay

 

I’ve got to travel on

I think it’s in my blood

Excitement is my spice of life

I can’t live like a stick in the mud

 

64. YESTERDAY’S TOMORROW

Yesterday’s tomorrow

Is still heavy on my mind

I’ll always remember

That you were very kind

 

You know sometimes

I think I should come home

But I know

I must travel on alone

 

My life is wasting away

Sitting here day after day

I know what I must do

Travel on without you

 

65. REFORM YOUR WAYS

If a man is short or tall

Does that make him different

From the rest of them all

 

If a man is black or white

Is that a good reason

For you to dislike

 

If a man has long hair

Is that a reason

For you to beware

 

If a man is not

100% good

Does that mean he is a hood

 

People you had better reform your ways

Because you are going to be judged

 One of these days 


Responses

  1. I’ll start from early on in my evolution I am a biracial man whose father is African-American and mother is Caucasian. My parents met in 1959 when my un-wed mother was in a nursing school where my father was employed as a nurse’s aide. My mother was engaged to a white man who was attending engineering school. My father had an African-American wife and five children at the time of his extra-marital relationship with my mother. At some early point of my mother’s pregnancy with me, she made the decision to marry her fiancé, and to lie to everyone about who the father of her un-born child was. She achieved this by claiming that I had been afflicted with a skin-disease called “melanism.”

    Communicating my experiences to my mother and step-father was difficult because they had no experience with racial prejudice, therefore when I had problems with other children, it would be looked at as an issue that “I” had in getting along with others (as well as intra-family sibling issues). Because “race” was being ruled-out entirely, by my mother’s denial of my father, she could not logically use that rationale to explain any conflicts that I would have. My step-father’s complicity in this was to blindly support my mother’s viewpoint.

    Questions:

    How has black society formed its identity?
    What role models have been used, and how does white society react to positive black role models today? (Are they held to a more critical prism??)
    Is there enough information readily available for black people to easily form a positive racial identity?
    Is it important that black society is able to connect accurately the dots of its social evolution in America? and is it also important that white society can connect those same dots??
    What is White Privilege?
    What is White awareness?
    What is Whiteness?
    What about Affirmative Action?
    Is” Race” a social construct?
    How do we improve our society in America?
    Is there any other way(besides the attrition of the old guard) to achieve this??

  2. Dave,

    Thank you for your thoughtful post to my poem about prejudice. I have edited your comments to give readers the essence of your comments, and for more they can go to your web site, discussrace.com, where I found this thoughtful comment of yours, “We believe that knowledge brings understanding, which begets wisdom, and every understanding human-being is better equipped and prepared to tackle what has now been called “the Race myth”. A better dialogue on Race is not only better for our generation, but also for future generations as the face of our future leaders continue to become increasingly more diverse.”

    As for my beliefs as a caucasian, I can only respond from my own individual perspective, where I have felt total disbelief and humiliation when discriminated against or made fun of because of my size as a child or my hair length when I was on my bike trip once. Of course, my situation is not race based, but any discrimination in life is humiliating as a person.

    Personally, I don’t really view people from a racial perspective – but from a human perspective. I look at someone based on the caliber of the person that they are, how they act, how they speak, and how they interact with me and others around them. I form impressions of them based on who they are as a person.

    We have a bi-racial woman in our office that I never even consider from a “racial” perspective, but simply as the person that she is. We had an African-American young man in our office who has now gone off to USAF pilot training; and as he is a very talented musician – I gave him the music equipment that I wasn’t using. Another woman in our office has an inter-racial marriage. Every situation involving interaction between people is just part of the greater whole called, “Life.”

    The real goal in life should be to view people as God loves and views us, unconditionally, as individual creations of great worth and precious to Him because of the fact that we are created in His image. To place individuals into any category (age, race, origin, nationality, religion, gender, lifestyle, etc.) runs contrary to viewing people as “individuals.” Society has come a long way towards treating “all” people as the unique and beautiful children of God that they really are. Let’s continue that progress toward a more loving and just society for everyone!

    Cheers,

    Mark


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