During the summer of 1996, I arranged to do a sound check on base, to check out what my equipment and songs sounded like in a larger venue – outside of my small practice room at home.
I had problems and personal challenges in attempting to transition from practicing at home to playing live, and had never performed for anyone before…my songs still felt much to personal for me to play them for anyone.
I couldn’t find the sound I wanted with my equipment when I amplified either my electric or acoustic guitars, so this day I only brought along my acoustic guitars – because I really enjoyed playing the 12-string acoustic the best.
I was confident in playing the guitar, but I couldn’t memorize the songs I had written, because my mind only visualizes images and can’t remember text or numbers in a visual format…so I was 100% reliant on the music stand to see and play my songs.
My primary issue though was that I lacked confidence in my voice, which can wander off tune when I’m not confident of hitting the right notes…so although I had fun, a performer I wasn’t…but that was OK.
I had fun during my sound check, and with my friend who took these pictures and helped me set up – my gift was writing words…not performing – and I was content with that.
Years later when we moved to Keene, NH, I finally performed at a number of open mic nights at a local bar and actually enjoyed myself…which was all I really wanted to do in the first place.